Living in Limbo

I’m struggling.

To write.

Anything.

This is my dream.  I love writing and I love sharing my life with you all.  But for some reason, I’m struggling to put any words down.  Do you ever feel like your life is so mundane that it’s not worth sharing?  But even though it feels that way, that doesn’t mean it’s not good.  I have been enjoying this season in my life.  I’m slowly catching up on cleaning and organizing the house, I’m working on projects in the house that needed to have been done since we moved in, I’m playing with the kids more, I’m trying to eat healthier, and some days I’m starting to feel like I can stop and take a breath if I need to.  That last one is very important.  None of the other accomplishments matter (except of course playing with my kids) if I’m overworked and overstressed.  It’s hard to find that balance.  And it’s even harder when you also want to write a blog.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My biggest hindrance?  Living in limbo again.  Have you ever had that feeling where you have two paths-neither is wrong, mind you-but you can’t commit to anything until you know which path to take?  Yeah.  That’s me right now.  And it’s so hard for me to share about anything when I’m stuck in limbo.

So in the meantime, one of the things that I can do while I’m biding my time is to add veggies to my meals as much as possible.  Thank goodness for frozen steamables!  They have been my lifesaver time and time again!  I have even gotten into the habit of eating a portion of a bag with my dinner and then frying up the rest in the morning with my eggs.  Unfortunately I’ve been using rice as a filler way too much.  And I’m realizing that my body is paying for it because it increases my bloating.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Some of the other ways I’ve been trying to keep myself occupied while I’m waiting is working on projects throughout the house and the yard.  I’ve been trimming up the trees and the bushes outside while it’s still winter.  Once I finish cleaning up all the clippings I think I’ll start adding fresh soil and mulch to my beds until it’s warm enough to start planting.  I’m really looking forward to embellishing my garden beds this year.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’m also working on finishing up Angela’s bedroom curtains and finishing the window seat in the playroom.  I have so many projects and plans swirling around in my head!  To be honest, it’s been difficult for me to go to sleep at night because I’m so excited about everything!  But that is such a good thing compared to the depression and hopelessness that I was dealing with at the end of last year.  I just have to keep chipping away at my list so that I don’t feel like my dreams are pointless.

Are there any projects that you are looking forward to completing this year?   Or maybe even just a goal of spending more playtime with your kids?  What keeps you going in the bland everyday moments or the silence while waiting?